Meera sat at the edge of the college canteen, her coffee cold and her phone bright in her hands. The table was sticky under her wrists, with a dried smear of ketchup by her elbow. The sounds of plates and the scent of overripe bananas drifted from the kitchen, ignored by most but strong where she sat. Laughter filled the room, light and easy. It seemed like everyone belonged to someone everyone but her.
A boy dropped into the seat across from her. Krish.
She had seen him in philosophy class
๐quiet, observant, the kind of person who seemed to notice what others missed.
“Philosophy makes people lonelier before it makes them wiser,” he said with a faint smile.
Meera looked up, surprised. “Maybe.”
Krish studied her for a moment, then spoke softly. “People think you’re reserved. But that’s not it. You feel everything too much. You sit in rooms full of people and still feel alone. You smile just enough to hide how badly you want to be understood.”
For a moment, Meera’s thumb hovered over her phone as the screen dimmed. She felt something tighten inside her. Part of her wanted to laugh, look away, or act like she hadn’t heard him. Instead, she stayed still, afraid that even breathing would show how much his words mattered.
Her breath caught.
“No one notices,” he continued, his voice gentle now, “how tired you are of pretending you’re fine. How scared you are that if you vanished, life would go on exactly the same.”
His words hit her deeply. They weren’t cruel, but they touched a part of her she usually ignored. Meera’s throat tightened, and her skin grew warm. She swallowed, unsure if she should pull back or move closer. Then she realised the words were true. For the first time, she felt seen.
Over the next few weeks, Krish became someone Meera trusted. His words made her feel at home. One night, he called her at midnight, apologising for the late hour and asking if she could lend him some money until next week. The next day, when she waved at him in the hallway, he barely met her eyes and his smile seemed forced. Soon, he kept asking for money for different emergencies, and then he disappeared.
Later, a classmate told her the truth.
“He says the same things to every new girl.”
That evening, Meera sat alone in the canteen again. Her coffee was untouched and cold, with no steam left. Her phone was face-down, its screen dark in the bright light. This time, the ache inside her was sharper. She realized she hadn’t been seen ๐๐only observed.
๐ฎIn the quiet, she wondered if others ever confused being recognised with being understood, or heard words that matched their pain but felt even emptier afterwards. She pressed her hand to the table and thought about how someone could say all the right things and still leave you feeling alone. Maybe some people notice your pain just to see where you are vulnerable. Sitting there, Meera realised that some things are best kept safe until the right person comes along.
He used vague “deep” statements to make people feel understood, saying something that sounds very personal but actually applies to many people.
“Being listened to is so close to being loved that most people cannot tell the difference.”- David Augsburger, psychologist and author
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